sunday evening

the worst time of the week, when you know you have 5 days of misery to contend with.

whats more there's quite a bit of rework i need to do because i've been put in a pretty bad spot because people dont consult with me before making changes, and that gives me very little time to make a lot of changes.

People expect me to do a lot of stuff for them. why is the assumption being made that i'm not busy on my own? of course i'm very busy! i dont like doing work to make up for others' mistakes when i dont even get recognized for it. i should just take a week off and then everyone will know!

but i've said that a million times before, i should just vacation some day(can vacation be used as a verb? i dont know, but it sounds likely).

my parents and sister and brother in law are enjoying a long weekend in nagarhole, and i'm stuck here in a different kind of a sanctuary. hardly a sanctuary! its supposed to offer me - and other giant mutant rats like me - protection from hunting and abuse...
its a zoo! people look through the bars and say "here, here, you stinkin' mutant centaur" and then they throw sticks, pebbles, paper, plastic at the centaur.
i dont know if i'm in an any better position than the centaur. is it better to be discriminated against or to be thrown stuff at?

every single day i pray for a global disaster, something that will make us all reset our priorities. i dont know, maybe a huge asteroid smashing into the face of the earth? an earthquake that splits up a continent? a nuclear war? a continent sinking? the earth's poles shifting by about 10 degrees? a huge asteroid impact on mars, sending phobos or deimos hurtling towards the earth?
betelguise going supernova?

i know we arent doing too well right now, and a realisation of that alone isnt enough to prevent certain disaster. what we need is a global warning, that puts everyone on high alert and makes us all forget all of our silly bickering.

and when that happens i want to be a witness to the human effort to cope with it.
maybe thats the reason i keep thinking i'm not where i'm supposed to be